I dont update journals much.
I just got my hair cut. it suites me more. that is about it.

Well, I just logged and while looking over my page I was struck with the fact that I haven't updated my journal. I know! I too was appauled at this fact and took the extreme approuch of altering it. I am doing fine as of now in the world. My forensic tournys have been canceled (least the ones I was schedualed for) due to weather. SO i have veen just looking for stuff to do. Hanging in their and scrapping by in Precal...I am not so good with it as i had anticipated i would be. Trig is just kicking my ass.
I'm on a diet and it is working out okay...granted it is only day one but i have lost ten pounds. No it is not surgicly inhanced...just me. I know it isnt good...but it is working and i can only hope i contiune to succed with it. That is all

I dont know if they have an emot for that but, but that is how I feel. Not to mention the fact that i am a little hungry right now. Oh well, i am sick what can I say...no seriously I am home sick for like the three day. i just dont feel good. Anyway, i dont feel up to doing much right now so...

All i have to say about you is...
WHAT THE FUCK!
and
I DONT CARE!
why did i trust you again.

Well..i am rather upset and distressed at the moment. I am worried more for other than for myself at the moment. My other cool and laid back friend has pointed out that this is one of my main problems with myself and it just makes me upset and wound up. WELL..this could be true but i can not help but care about the problems of the other at hand. They are quite mayjor in the extreme . Whilst i care ever so much he *friend with problem* seems to forget that i do indeed share good information and am a great person to talk to * might try it if you have a problem...i amvery kind adn like to help*.
Although me being such a loveing and caring person..one that carrys her heart on her sleave is bound to get hurt by such people and things. I blame my mother for that. also my natural born gift and nack of kindness and helpfulness. Something that my sister [link] does not have or have a inkling to learn.
so while the entire mass of careing and concerning for my friend * and people in general* with the upmost certainty that i am doing what is right. And i feel distressed about what has be done to me in the past. Even though, through past experiences one learns from the present and can better perdict the future...it is a hazardous thing at times.